It's the most wonderful time of the year.

IRATE!

Yesterday, due to some inevitable circumstances relevant to my work, I got pissed. I don’t want to specify who and how I got angry but I was really surprised, I can be really, really, as in really mad.

Odd as it may sound; my officemates knew me of being calm, nice, "sweet" (hehehe), cheerful, and non-temperamental that when they saw me yesterday fuming out of proportion, one employee said, “Nagagalit pala si Ma’am Divine.” Seriously, that comment really made me laugh. My image of being sweet came tumbling down and down and the mala-anghel aura was being replaced by a grouchy lady in just one day, just because of one event that really got into me.

Affected talaga ako to the point na sumasakit na ang aking dibdib ko. Surprisingly, I wasn’t crying at all. But I can really feel that it’s already affecting me physically, I wanted to curse. I wanted to say mean things. I wanted to confront. I wanted to get even. The worst part was, I can’t let it go that easily.

I used to have this extremely long line of patience in me. Kahit siguro matapakan ako ng 3 beses sa loob ng LRT, hindi ako papalag eh. There are just some things that you can’t ignore. Maybe that’s the reason why I really snapped.

Fortunately my officemates were able to calm me down. I try my best to laugh in spite of my mood. Para akong ewan talaga. When I got to my desk, I let myself rest and cool down for a while, and then I started searching some Bible verses about anger management. Then I got this,

"Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger.." Ephesians 4:26 ESV

The Bible shows that it’s normal for us to be angry, to get mad, and to get furious. We are born to feel and capable to respond to things. It’s not wrong to get angry. But it’s clear that if ever we do get angry, we must not sin.

Oh it’s so easy to punch someone in the face, talk behind their backs, curse, bad-mouth them. It’s hard to control. Emotions can really make us do crazy things. It’s easy to take matters in our own hands. Most especially if we know we are right. But then again, anuman ang gawin naten, nasa huli ang pagsisisi. It’s true. God’s word is clear, correcting us and guiding us, changing us from day to day basis.

So when you get angry, pause. Pray. Remember His word and promises. Maybe you were the aggrieved person and you’re about to explode, hold it for a while. God is our refuge.

“Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” – Romans 12:19.

Spread the love everyone. Christmas is fast approaching. God bless.

Facebook Banning...

On our workplace that is. Let's just say that I'm one of those who is guilty in committing a huge crime in using facebook during office hours. Hindi na ako magmamalinis. hehehe! These notifications are just tempting man! hahaha! Those little red numbered flags are hard not to open. Major struggle! I thought it's just a harmless little thing. No one would know. No one would mind. But if you are now rushing tons and tons of deadlines and pending because you have failed to do your job on time, and making facebook the main culprit of it, then it's a whole different story.

For sure some would agree with me, facebook is addicting. Of course, who doesn't want to stay in touch with their friends, view the profiles and updates of your peeps and other strangers. Hindi mo mapigilan tumitig sa picture ng crush mo! hehehe! It's like a vice. Masarap ang bawal. The worst part is, I know it's wrong, yet I kept doing it. I know that even if no one sees me, even if no one would speak up and tell us off, I know Someone does see me, and He is not happy on what He's looking at.

So when the first warning came in our office, I personally decided to radically change this pattern. Not just to do what is morally right but also to accomplish tasks that must be done on time. It's hard. hahaha! If some would read my blog right now, you might say, Facebook lang yan teh?! Oh yeah! It might "just" be facebook, but the difficult thing here is breaking the bad habit. This lifestyle at work that seems to become a norm. It's been tempting to open a new tab and log in. Since my boss didn't approve of blocking the facebook site on our network, I agree with her. What's the point of exercising self-control if the object of temptation is already gone?

The good news is? It's possible. Oh yes we can! Kahit hindi facebook yan, it could be other things that we are addicted to. Things that we put lordship over us. Things that we know that could ruin us in the future yet we hold onto them.

1 Corinthians 10:13 " No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it."

I don't mean to be too preachy about this, but I'm just thankful to God because again, He has proven that His word works and we can overcome temptations. I thank God because I know Facebook and these things has no power over me. That in this workplace, in this time of change, it's not me who shines, but Him. :)

On Blog-Overhaul...

One petiks day at the office, my blog went to an evaluation. I was browsing some of my previous posts and I just kept thinking “why did I ever write that post?” I was thinking of deleting all of my posts and start fresh. I was thinking of tumbling my way through tumblr or pressing toward wordpress and create a new account hahaha! Yet, I decided to just stay here. ‘Wag muna malikot. Hahaha! Well for the main reason, that those posts are the proof of how much I’ve changed since I started blogging here. Besides, if ever lilipat ako, yun eh dahil may sarili na akong domain!! Hahahaha!

Let’s just say that this blog-overhaul is influenced by my newly-found passion, new-found influence from people. Surprisingly, unexpectedly, came across to my life on world wide web. Another reason would be, after more than a year of writing here on blogspot, I think it’s time for a blog-makeover. So for starters for this blog overhaul, I got myself asking three things;

WHY DO I BLOG?

I’ve been a blogger for about 5 years I think. I’m not really sure though. The very first blog that I stumbled upon on is Paula Peralejo’s site. Sad to say, it’s not updated anymore. I remember saying “okay to ah?!” She has so much take on things, and for her age, she’s very articulate and she’s really smart. Na-inspire lang talaga ako. There’s so much that rubbed off in me in writing and posting blogs. It is fun. It’s something new, another tool for us to improve our communication skills, even just in writing and most of all, magmumukha akong smart hahaha! I want to voice out my opinion on things, seize that freedom of expression, despite the uncertainty that someone will bother to read them.


HOW WOULD I WRITE MY BLOG?

Paula Peralejo is just one source. One influence. One style. As the years go by, I’m starting to sound like her, losing my identity that should be the one that outshines on my site. I realized that it’s up to me how would I present my blog, what posts would matter and how would I make it readable and sounding more like me. I don’t want to give an impression to readers that the person writing this is so different from writer. Ang showbiz ko naman pag nagkataon. Haha!

Another thing is medium. Wala pa akong kilalang foreigner na nagbabasa ng post ko. I’m not an expert in English, I have troubles in prepositions, conjunctions, and sometimes, I’m suffering a mild case of nominal aphasia hahaha. So I decided to blog as if I was just conversing to a certain friend. No hesitations. Comfortable to the point na lumalabas ang pagiging babaeng bakla ko. Hehehe! I’d rather have it that way, as long as it’s effective, non-offensive and beneficial to reader/s.

(*Nominal Aphasia – Better known around the research community as Anomic aphasia, it is a severe problem with recalling words or names) – Source; Wikipedia

WHAT WOULD I WANT MY BLOG TO BE?

Everything starts with a purpose. A goal. Lately I’ve been questioning even the minute things I do if there’s a purpose or not. The mere fact I’m spending too much time in blogging must have a purpose. Time is gold diba? Hehehe! So for me, this is very important. I have to define it now starting this blog-overhaul.

I want my blog to be inspirational. I want to inspire people just how other bloggers inspire me. I hope to connect with other people when I blog. I want it to be fun and carefree. Kumbaga anything goes. From something informative to something adventurous, as long as it’s worth-posting hehehe! I want to naturally inject humor on my post. One blog that really got me laughing was Patty Laurel’s site. She occasionally writes but whenever she post new ones, for sure benta yun. Lalo na sa aking mababaw ang kaligayahan hehehe.

And last but not the least; I want it to be Scripture-oriented. I came to a realization how powerful the Bible is. You want encouragement? you’ll get it from there. You want assurance, peace, answers? They’re all there. Pastor Dennis and Miss Thammie’s blog gave me the drive for this and I’m very thankful to God on encountering these people. I encourage you if ever you start a blog, have at least 1 or 2 verses to share. You never know who might need it.






I hope that this post can also help those who wanted to start their own blog. I for sure would be glad to help with my very best effort. I know the blogger in me 5 years ago is much different from the blogger now. I don’t want to break down personally what changed; I’ll let you be the judge. Hehehe! Hopefully the coming posts are in accordance with all the stuff I said here. I started overhauling my theme. Hahaha! Tell me what you guys think. God bless everyone.

*photo credits: www.thammiesy.com and aaronvicencio.blogspot.com